First of all, Happy Eid Mubarak to everyone who celebrates - myself included. If it's so hard to do it before, let this day be the day for you to let go and forgive others but remember to not exclude yourself to receive some forgiveness too. Forgive yourself first, love yourself first. It's also been more than two months for me staying at home. Bored? Obviously. Anxious? No doubt. But strangely speaking, I feel content too. My guess, I've been dealing with it one step at a time and I can finally able to see the end of it. Peace. The anxiety comes back once in awhile but I no longer feel the need to fight back, so I accept it. And it's gone sooner than I thought it would.
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| I've been skipping Corona virus updates for awhile to ease my anxiety |
I know some of you probably feel the same. At the first phase of quarantine - mid March, I also felt like I'm losing some sense in me. The feeling of -'few seconds more than this, I'm gonna lose it' constantly reached my mind. No amount of video calls could help. I wanted to go out, but going out made me dizzy. I treated everyone like a carrier even my family members. I spent a crazy ton of time scrolling through e-commerces and a crazy ton more of money to redecorate my room. Just for the sake of 'I'm doing everything I could to stay sane!'
